(but moving forward…)

Uh-oh! We’re five days into 2014 and I’m still thinking about my list of New Year’s Resolutions. So in a never-ending effort to stop procrastinating (which should be my #1) — I’m addressing it now. Not tomorrow, not next week – NOW!

DO UNTO OTHERS…

As I contemplate my list, my wandering mind heads over to what bugs me in others and what I’d write on their list:

• My “Dr. McCrush” (master of mixed-messages) over-analyzes pros and cons of anything remotely personal. He’s so freaked-out about moving in the wrong direction, he makes no moves at all! Not only is it frustrating from my P.O.V., I realize it can’t be healthy for him to be in constant stress-mode. What’s weird is that he has no problem making decisions professionally – he’s always focused and forthright and has an awesome bedside manner. But personally he’s a total basket case. Obviously there’s a whole lotta baggage in his history. (C’mon, Dr. A – pack it up already and let’s get going.)
• My Agent Josh is big on conversation these days, but not great at delivering. I realize his hands are tied by some of my inconvenient spur-of-the-moment decisions — and now that I’m on the lower steps of a ladder, it’s harder to get back up — but I’d rather he didn’t say something and get my hopes up than not say it at all. (But I don’t want to lose all hope…)
• My frenemy, Briana weirds me out on a regular basis, with her passive-aggressive behavior, the fleeting moments when things seem like they always used to and her bitchy flare-ups when I least expect them. Why does she hold onto the past, when there’s the possibility of a positive future? (Enough with the Dr. Jekyll and Hyde-ness!)
• My Volunteer Supervisior, Charlayne would get a lot more outta me if she’d show a little appreciation, ugh. It’s not a sign of weakness, Charlayne to act human occasionally. (“Honeychild,” didn’t they teach you in Southern school that you get a lot more flies with honey — not that I’m a fly – I hate flies, almost as much as moths who eat away at the vintage designer sweaters my mom left me.)

POWER TO CHANGE —

Since I can’t change others and I can only myself, here’s MY list, based on what I’d want others to do in 2014:

• POSITIVE EXPRESSIONS: Without expectations I will fearlessly positively express myself wherever, whenever to whomever . (Wait, isn’t that how I got into this ER mess in the first place? Oops!)
• FOLLOW-THROUGH: If I say I’m going to do something, I’m going to actually do it! (I will, I will, I will — I’ll try to “say what I mean and mean what I say.”)
• FOCUS ON THE GOOD: I will try to see the good in everyone and everything and make the most of it. (Yep, that means even with Briana-the-bitch, uhm, I mean Briana-the best, ahaha — this is when good acting really needs to kick in!)
• SHOW APPRECIATION: When someone tries to do something for me or does a good job, I’m gonna be sure to let them know it matters to me, big time! (Thanks for reading this btw!)

Right now I need to go coach for an audition this week.  (Yep, Pilot Season is happening! — That’s good, right?) Thanks for being here — I really appreciate it! Hope your 2014 is awesome… everything you want it to be and more!

Oh, and remember to FIND THE FUNNY —

xo/Evie