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kill me now

They say — “Timing is everything” but when is it gonna to be my time? The right time? Time to cash a paycheck?  Booking a job is like an oasis – it seems like it’s right there in front of me…like I’m on the verge. But when I get closer it just vaporizes into a cloud of disappointment. I feel like I’m constantly letting down the people who care about me — the ones who believe in me… it totally sucks.

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acting sucks

I go from rising to falling star before anyone knows or gives a “F”. Am I talented or just kidding myself? It’s getting harder and harder to tell. Confidence is disappearing. How do I get the magic back? I don’t wannabe a wannabe. I wannabe where I was… before I knew it…  before I blew it… Where’s the funny? I can’t find it. Where’s my “lost and found”? Read the rest of this entry »

I’ve been feeling GUILTY about something for the last 48 hours…I need to be straight with you —

In my last post about “GOSSIPS and MEANIES” I pretended like I was talking about someone else (you prob’ly saw right through me anyway.) I was really embarrassed about being a complete weenie since…

I’m “Hottie” (no, I don’t think I’m hot, but some deranged people do.) I’m the one who allowed myself to be manipulated by Pushy. Humiliating as it is to admit, I gave my POWER over to someone else. No one should do that.  NO ONE. Read the rest of this entry »

OMG! I’m such a KLUTZ!

find the funny even when it hurts

Before my 1:00 shift today I thought I could squeeze in a mani|pedi. (Wrong!) I was excited to look my best for my meeting tonight at Craigs with a up-and-coming Writer/Director. Apparently I miscalculated.

Upsettingly, the whole process took longer than usual (How would I know Nail Spa Lane would be busy on a Monday?) Realizing I was LATE, I ran through the alley, and hopped over a planter, but my flip flop got caught on the ledge and I landed face-down on the pavement. OUCH! Read the rest of this entry »

the magic of believing

I was feeling a little blue this week until suddenly, after sixty-nine days underground, a super rad space-looking capsule lifted 33 smiling miners out of the ground, reminding me and the entire world that —

HOPE IS ALL AROUND US!

Hope empowers us. It makes the impossible possible and at the very least it gets us through the days we’re afraid we can’t get through. And, just in case we aren’t “feeling it,” there are so many signs. Read the rest of this entry »

So sad to read about Patrick Swayze on Twitter.

I was going to post about how I’ll never get to work with him, but when I started to type I realized how small that is… and it got me really thinking. His challenge was so enormous and he was extraordinarily brave. And strong, when he must have felt so weak. Helps put things into perspective… he wasn’t just acting, but it was a remarkable performance.

I guess no one knows if they’re courageous til they’re put to the test.

He gets an A+++.

Thank you, RIP.

Patrick Swayze – not just a pretty face

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Volunteering is great.  For some people.

But this is really messed up.
It wasn’t even my idea.
And it’s my career that gets hurt.

Just because of some sleeze and a slow news day, I’m screwed.

lady judge who killed my career looked like this, only not

I’m probably not allowed to say anything about the judge but I know when I’m being used as an example and she did and this sucks. I got hard time.

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